Saturday 20th October 2012

So hello, stranger.
Reading my blog filled with inspiration, thoughts and sadness.
Today, I went to see The Perks Of Being A Wallflower, one of my favourite books.
I prefer the book compared to the film, my favourite parts where the bits where Charlie showed his affection to Sam, well their relationship basically.
It didn't tell as much emotion as it did in the book but it was a good film.
I'm having my favourite meal, well my second favourite meal.. Because my favourite favourite meal is cous cous, with the spicy sauce.. Its called soupe au fric, it delicious.

Tonight, I'm going on a plane to China, scary.

China Plan.

The days have finally come, its Friday and its raining.. The internet is slow because of the weather *sighs* so its hard to go on Tumblr and Blog on here because it takes forever..
I'm listening to The Smiths, I love the smiths.
I'm also thinking about Tom, I already miss him.. I talked to him today, it was awkward at break but lunch was good, we had a whole conversation but he wen't a little quiet and blushy when I started talking about 'China' I think he'll miss me more than I'll miss him.
I'll listen to all his favourite songs, write about him, call him, send him emails and postcards
because he means the world to me, without him I wouldn't be happy.

Anyway, sorry about that little 'missing Tom rant' yes, sorry.
Heres the plan.

I'm going to film video diaries everyday so you can see the whole city with me and everything
I'd be interesting...
When I come back I'm going to make a post about China and add all the pictures and videos I've filmed that will be uploaded on Youtube

I'll miss everyone
Literally everyone but mostly my best friend Ashleigh and my soul mate Tom, I'll miss him more though.
But I'll miss being with Ashleigh and laughing at our jokes

Very Romantic.

I found this romantic, somehow.. I saw this picture on tumblr and I was saying to myself "I wonder if someone would do that to me if I was in a cute serious romantic relationship.

You Don't Have To Be A Size Zero To Be Perfect.

Every girl, woman and lady wants to be skinny because of what they see in the magazines.

All of those bodies in those magazines have been photoshopped and all those models well they have a weird diet when they have a beautiful figure already. I don't know why models have to be skinny

Everyone has their own flaws and curves but I don't why people ruin there beauty on photoshop.

Embrace your body, wear a tight dress or something that embraces your true flaws.

You don't need to go on a diet, or go to the gym everyday or anything else to change the way you look.

You don't need to be a size 0 or the smallest sizes on the hanger 

You don't need bigger hipbones, a flat stomach, skinny wrists and legs.

Or even visible collar bones and skinny ankles 

You don't need any of those things above, they don't embrace who you are.

I think we should all make a commitment after reading what I just wrote

My 10 Favourite Albums.

There in no particular order, there just a list of my favourite 10 albums.

Christmas List.

Dear Santa, This is Elisa, I've grown up now but my belief will always be with you

I'm thirteen, I know its big well not massive like a sweet sixteen but its BIG!

I'm listening to Christmas songs while writing this to you, so I can get in the Christmassy mood.

Heres my list of the things I want to get for Christmas, Christmas will always be the best.

• A turquoise typewriter
• A polaroid camera with film
• A new camera (Nikon D90)
• Uglies Series/Trilogy By Scott Westerfeld
• The XX's new album (Coexist) vinyl or cd
• Ruby Woo lipstick by MAC 

I'll finish the rest of the list when I think of something

People Who Are My Role Models.

Marina Diamondis

Her mind is like a teenagers even though she's like 20 something

She's open minded and realistic about things.

I just love who she is, she's honest and tells her problems on BLOGTV.

Alexa Chung

There's something about her that I don't know what it is.

What she said in a interview: 

Speaking of attention, sometimes it’s not always so good. A little while ago there was some drama over your instagram being ‘thinspiration.‘ How did you feel about that?
Yeah I think it really sucks. I think it’s about time people stopped judging women on their appearance and more on their intellect. Like you can appreciate my style without having to appreciate my weight. It’s not actually mutually inclusive. I just get frustrated because, just because I exist in this shape, doesn’t mean that I’m like advocating it and being like, ‘I look great.’ How do you know I’m not looking in the mirror and going ‘I wish I could gain ten pounds?’ Which is actually quite often the case. But if you say that you sound like you’re bragging that you’re naturally thin, and you’re not allowed to do that because even though it’s not the ideal weight, it kind of is as well. So it’s really fucked up. And how people that are bigger can be on the front covers of magazines being like ‘I’m really happy with my shape.’ But if I was to do that, I’d be completely criticized and ridiculed. But why can’t I be happy with how I look?

Right. It’s unfair for people to judge.
It’s not like I’m starving myself, I’m not. This is just how this [gesturing to her body] is. At this point in time and like maybe it will change when I get older but due to stress factors and all that, this is my natural body shape. I don’t sit around and judge other people and flick through magazines and be like ‘fuckin’ hell she’s gained ten.’ Like who cares? Why don’t you start being like ‘wow, I really like that women’s show.’ Like Lena Dunham’s really intelligent [and people seem to be able to focus on that, rather than how she looks.]

That's what I like about her.

Demi Lovato

I don't like her music as much, because it's a complete different genre of music but 'Skyscraper' was her best song of hers that I like.

Her smile and laugh is so cute.

I like that she inspires young girls who were like her when she was a teenager

She stays strong and when people mention bullying to her she understands everything they've gone through like on the X Factor USA audition of Jillian Jenson which made me cry.

Things I Find Romantic.

• Cuddling on the sofa or bed with someone
• Putting your head on a boys shoulder while cuddling them
• Putting your head on someones chest (boys chest)
• Holding hands in public
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What I Love About Tattoos.

No, I haven't had a tattoo yet but I have tons of ideas of what tattoos I want.
I love that they tell a personal story behind it whether its a word, quote or anything it will have a meaning to someone.
I wonder what it feels like to be a tattoo artist, like if they ask the person who getting the tattooo done, what it means to them and why their getting it done.

I want like about 5 tattoos, I have decided what yet.
Theres something about them, I want to write a poem about my passion for getting a tattoo..
I can just imagine the ink getting engraved in my bones and soul, its beautiful.
Tattoos are beautiful
I wish I could just write everything that's on mind about tattoos.

10 Days Till I Fly To China.

Wow, the days have gone so fast.. I can't believe it
Before the day I go I will post a post about travelling with all the stuff to take and beauty etc etc....
I will take tons of photos and write letters to you guys sent by my email and make a whole post with the emails, photos and my thoughts on the trip.

I'm so excited!!!!!!
I can't wait to do the touristy stuff and literally everything

Things I like.

• when people use my name in conversation
• when people say “this reminded me of you!” 
• when people remember little things I say/do
• when people genuinely thank me for things i’ve done for them
• when I think of the same thing at the same time as someone else and you give each other the  look

Favourite Picture.

For the longest time i have believed this and i never really knew how to put it into words, but now i do: “you are a collective of every experience you have had in your life”. it’s crazy to think about, but its so true. things from other people, whether its movies or music or books or games or anything really, shape you into who you are and who you will become… yet you are still your own person because it is your brain decides which experiences and ideas are important, pleasurable, or agreeable… you know?

Best Friend Tag Featuring Ashleigh.

 
We decided to do it like an interview which is weird but yeah.
We might film a video version too.

How and when did we meet?

Ashleigh:  We met on the Paris trip in year 7, Phoebe introduced us and we just got along really well ever since!!

Me: We met on the trip to Paris on the coach and Phoebe introduced us to each other and it was awkward at first but we got along in the end.

What's your favourite memory together? 

Going to the hop farm and getting into the atmosphere and also going to London and seeing Chicago The Musical

Describe each other in one word.

Ashleigh: One word for you? Theres loads but I think dreamer or sweet works best

Me: Funny.

What's your dream job?

Ashleigh: My dream job is forensic sientist, police officer or detective. to work in law enforcement really. 

Me: A writer, I love writing. It helps me escape sometimes or anything actually.

What's your favourite makeup brand?

Ashleigh: Barry M

Me: Hmm this is hard, I use loads of makeup but I can't decide what brand, maybe Natural Collection.

What is something that annoys you about the other person?

 

Ashleigh: Ermm..... when you try to hide you're feelings away, you need to let them out

Me: When you have low confidence and you're afraid of taking risks when their good risks.

If you could go anywhere in the world together, where would it be and why?

Ashleigh: How about new york together, or go round america together!! that would be awesome!!

Me: New York, we've always talk about going on a little trip to New York.

Favourite inside joke?

Ashleigh: favourite inside joke has to be " why's everybody looking at my nuts?" and "ninja!"

Me: You must of read my mind, same as Ash.

Who takes longer to get ready in the morning?

Ashleigh: Me, I take 40 minutes to get ready

Me: I take 20 minutes

Favourite season?

Ashleigh: Is spring I think, love the weather and little animals and flowers 

Me: Autumn, I love those Autumn colours, food, autumn feeling and the leaves falling from the trees, its perfect

Favourite Song?

Ashleigh: at the moment I absolutely LOVE some nights by fun, little talks by of monsters and men and I also really like lights by ellie goulding

Me: Jessie's Girl By Rick Springfield, my all time favourite song, everytime I listen to it I start doing air guitar and head banging

What is it like being best friends with someone who is obsessed with youtube.

Ashleigh: I'm obsessed with youtube too!! not as much and I don't hav any videos on there but I love it for music and watching you're videos!!

Me: Ashleigh doesn't have a youtube, but I do, I'm a little obsessed.

Heels or flats?

Ashleigh: ooh tough one!! I love heels but they hurt, lots!!, I'm in love with sparkly pumps at the moment,
I think flats can look just as great as heels and be more comfy, so flats it think, with a small wedge or heel is always great though!!

Me: Flats, I would wear converse or pumps they go with every single outfit.

Pants or dresses?

Ashleigh:  Another tough one, I love dresses because they look great with minimal make-up and bling, but jeans/shorts look amazing with the right top, maybe pants. they go with everything and can look casual or dressed up, they take you from night to day!!

Me: Pants, I have to say that. I normally wear dresses on special occasions or when the weather is hot in the middle of summer.

Favourite Animal

Ashleigh: Is dragonfly, if that counts if not then cat dolphin or meerkat

Me: Cat, call me cat lady I love cats but I love dogs too so that's quite hard. 

If your house was burning down, and your entire family was sure to be okay, what would you save and why?

Ashleigh: I would save my laptop because it has all my stuff on and my cat because I could not live without her and iPod, it has so many memories on it!!!

Me: Photo albums and cameras because I love photography

Comedy, horror, or chick-flick?

Ashleigh: well I love comedy, horror and chcik-flicks, maybe a zom-com or a rom-com, horror with my friends any day!!!

Me: Comedy all the way, it always makes my night when I watch a comedy. But if it was with my friends then a click flick

Blackberry or iPhone?

Ashleigh: I don't have a blackberry or iPhone but I would pick an iPhone straight away!!!!

Me: I used to have a blackberry cause of BBM but that's the only reason I got it, but it got a little boring afterwards and the keyboard hurts my fingers so I decided to make a change and my dad let me have his iPhone 3G S which is good because of the screen and the apps, so iPhone all the way baby!

Favourite movie?

Ashleigh: I've got so many favourite movies, my favourite would have to be zombieland I think, I love it, but st.trinians is a close runner up!!

I love harry potter, avatar, twilight, titanic, pirates of tthe caribbean,  

sherlock holmes, mean girls and scooby doo movies aswell!

Me: That would have to be 500 days of summer, sad but perfect.

What is something weird that we both eat?

Ashleigh: Is american pancakes!! pancakes with syrup, bacon, scrambled egg, mmm tasty!!!!

Me: I don't know, weird food.

Do you guys have anything matching?

Ashleigh: Friendship bracelets

Me: Friendship bracelets

Favourite Tv Show?

Ashleigh: Favourite tv shows are alphas, csi, csi miami, csi ny, ncis, person of interest, merlin, doctor who, scooby-doo!!! scooby has gotta be my all time favourite!!

Me: Ugly Betty, I love that show. She inspired me to make this blog actually, yes I really admire her and I don't think she's ugly because she's had tons of relationships.

Hope you liked this!

My Love For Travelling.

I've always loved travelling since I was little, its kind of a tradition in our family. We travel to different countries all the time to try and make tons of lovely memories.

I love road trips, singing in the car, camping then going into the big famous cities.
That's a great thing about travelling

When I've finished my school related stuff, I want to travel the world with someone either a best friend or a boyfriend. We could take pictures, send postcards and make memorable memories in our young teenage years. I want to get one of them Volkswagen camper vans where all my friends can go on a roadtrip to loads of cities and sleep while driving, i'd be so cool. 
We could decorate the van with colourful colours and patterns.

Blogging, blogging, blogging.

Hi, this is weird. I guess I made the decision to actually make a “proper” blog. I’ve always been into writing. I don’t know if I’m any good at it, but I like it. When I was younger I wanted to be a journalist. But that quickly changed when I got into music a bit more. I guess I’ll just blog whenever I feel like I have to write something down. And post pictures. I love pictures, they’re the best things to remember a certain day or moment. So feel free to tag along and see what I’m doing. Don’t get me wrong though. I’m nothing cool. I’m just a little one. 

Missing Halloween.

The days have gone so quick and its getting closer to when I go to China.
I will do a travel post before going
But when I'm in China, I will miss out on halloween. I love halloween, all the fun, trick or treating, scaring people and making people laugh, I will miss that.

But I think while I'm in China, I can celebrate with my friends that are going.

Got My Haircut.

Well, not a proper haircut. Just a trim.
I'm growing my hair long, trying to make it like Taylor Momsen's although she wears hair extensions. My hair is longer than hers when she doesn't have her extensions in. It comes up to like passed her collarbone.

Her hair without extensions.

(Not a recent picture)

Anyway, your properly waiting to see what my haircut looks like.

Advice From A Tree.

(Picture from HERE)

• Stand tall and proud
• Go out on a limb
• Remember your roots
• Drink plenty of water
• Be content with your natural beauty
• Enjoy the view

My Definition Of Beauty.

I used to believe beauty with something so one sided and then a few years ago I opened my eyes and realised how much beauty I was truly missing. Theres really no definition of beauty because it all means something different to us all. I think beauty is when you're happy with yourself and you can look in the mirror and be proud of whats looking back at uoi. I'm not talking about looks either. When you look in the mirror you see more then your hair, eyes, body, boobs etc you see you and not everyone looks past all of that other stuff to truly see who you are. I think the true beauty is under all that hair and makeup, beauty is whats on the inside.
When you get to know someone thats when you know whether or not they're beautiful.
You can't decide whether they are or not without talking to them.

A Few Things That Make Life Beautiful.

• Seeing old couples holdings hands 
• First snow
• Hearing your favourite song on the radio
• Eating pizza after after a long day
• Listening to vinyls
• Laughing your tears out
• Reading books under blankets
• Smiling at someone in the street who smiles back
• Shouting as loudly as possible
• Cycling down a hill
• Watching the rain and drinking tea.

Something.

If I ever push you away, I don't really mean to.
When I tell I don't want to talk about it
I do, I am just looking for the right words.
Give me a minute, and if I can tell you I will.
I try to be a struggling mix of real and perfect at the same time.
                                  at the moment,
I am working on the ratio.
when I get really quite sometimes
Its because I have too much to say
I have thought of too many things to tell you
all at once
and I don't know what to say first,
I get immaturely jealous of anyone
who gets to see you on daily basis.
I miss you really easily
But I also like that we can be

a       p        a      r     t
and we are both okay,               space is good, too.
I love the way we love some of the same things.          and I love how
we love entirely different things.
My head is complicated pile of thoughts,
and fears and cravings, and dreams,
and this tangled up nostalgia for the
past and, somehow, the future.
I am flawed and I am human and I am broken and
I am trying and I am one person and I am two
hands and I am one                            and I love you,
heart.                                            and I am so glad you are here.

Hair Inspiration.

There's something about hair, if you're hair looks nice then you feel good.
If it the way you styled, curled or straightened it.
Or if you just dyed it a new colour
Or had it cut.
You'll still feel good

Here are a few of my hair inspirations.

Hippie Inspiration.

Holding Hands.

Holding hands may seem like an innocent gesture, but they show more than a simple interlocking of fingers. Your hands are one of the most essential parts of your body: you build with them, feed with them, hold with them, touch with them, fight with them; they are the tools of the human body. To take a hold of another’s hand is to break from living individually. It is to link yourself to another being, to momentarily entwine your life with another’s, to promise, for a moment, that you need not face the world alone. More simple, more aesthetically naive than other forms of affection, i.e kissing, hugging, sexing.., the act of holding hands is often trivialized in its true implications.

20 Days Until I fly To China.

No i'm not going to do one of those silly countdowns until something happens
I'm really excited
I think when I come back I'm going to upload all my photos of the city on to tumblr and make a post on here about my trip to china.

I'm going to miss alot of people
Lots of people

Have You Ever Thought?

Have you ever thought about how many people think about you? It’s so bizarre. Imagine someone, out of the blue, thinking of your face. Something happens; they remember you. Your favorite song, how you dress, the way you talk, the look in your eyes when you are happy. They remember that about you, even if you haven’t seen each other in years. Everything in life is a reminder of a person, a place, a moment. You may think you’ve forgotten, but you haven’t.